Here are my ramblings about the year which I think overall has been a troubling one for everyone. I guess some have had a good year but for me and some of my close friends, its been one filled with much trials and tribulations. Well … to be honest this year would be one of the worst I’ve had in my 32 years.
I guess the one bright spark amongst it all is a sweet neurotic guy I met. Fingers crossed is all I will say.
Well … here goes …..
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It started off with me quitting my job to take a stake in Anthropology Homeware which has turned around well. I think its reached a point where many people in the business consider us the shop of the year. That’s good to hear and know as all the hard work and long hours have paid off. I have a whole new respect for retail staff and people who work in warehouses.
Likely I’ll be going back to regular work and look after the shop part-time. Given the turn of events in my personal life, I think I need to get my life back in order. All that happens is for a reason i believe …. so back to the rat race I go.
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Professionally for some of my friends, losing their jobs was something I heard over and over again. Its worrying to hear about how they worry about making ends meet and keeping a roof over their heads. For some, it was a good thing as the sudden upheaval made them move on to better things and greater prospects. Strecthing themselves again and learning that its never too late to do new things and become better at what they do is an important lesson never to forget even in our mature years. (not that I’m very old la)
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On the break up scene, several couples have all split and the list goes:
- Derrick & Ahmad (aft 5yrs)
- Karen & husband (divorcing)
- Benjamin & Amanda (divorcing)
- me & Tony (aft 5 yrs)
I’ve also heard of several couples and friends of friends breaking up after long periods of being together so I also call 2003 the year of the break-up! You think it was something in the water or maybe side effects from El Nino??
Break-ups are never easy and from wat I hear from my divorcing friends, some are going through some nasty times with ex-husbands refusing to pay for their kids education among other things. My split is not as dramatic given that its mostly one sided emotional games. But it is tiring to have to put up with these psychological games and screaming matches every other day.
At times I worry this will drive a wedge between me and the people I care about. Faith is all I can have I guess. Faith that we will be able to withstand all this.
Through all the tension and emotional upheaval … one thing I tell myself is “this too shall pass”.
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With all that has happened, nothing compares to the loss of one’s mom and Christmas Eve will remind me of the passing of Robin’s (robingoh) dear, wonderful mother. She was the sweetest lady I knew and the love that their family had is something that is beautiful and truly moving.
He has decided to share how he feels in his journals and reading the entries is enough for anyone to see how deep his love for his mom is. Time will heal dearest friend of many years …. and in time you will remember her as fondly, if not more, and the pain will get less. We’re all here for you. LOVE YOU
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It seems the only thing good for me was Anthropology but that really isn’t true. As the years pass you meet people that become close friends and I must say I’m thankful that I’ve gotten to know friends like Denny, Wayne, Jasmine, Roy, Sam, Dexter, Stephanie and their gang of crazy friends. Its also great to have George back from Holland!!!
Someone once said that with gay people, friends are family we choose to surround ourselves with for life. I’m truly glad and feel truly blessed to know these new friends and have them alongside great pals like Jay, Anuar, Robin, George, Andrina, Jason, Chen Hui Ling, Calvin, Yew Jin, Angela and all my other sisters and brothers!!!
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This year has taught me much. Thank you whatever greater forces and beings out there for the strength and experience these trials have instilled in me.
Here’s to 2004 …. may the events in 2003 make us stronger for the years ahead and may the new year be filled with much hope, happiness and steps towards world peace for everyone.
I wish for everyone a simple and happy life.
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aiyah….thank u thank u *blush* shy la.. hhahahahaa
slap sam… hiaz, if i had wanted to slap him, would’ve done it a million times already… but too bad la, he is my che, how to be angry! LOLzzzz
Ah Pang … so we make new traditional of slapping Sam hard hard on his back-side la!
but its true….she is insultable….so shut up.
i refuse to give up on tradition
Re: What a year indeed!
silly la you … what debt?? Friends don’t count such things one la. There’ll be plenty of times we’ll need to be there for each other and unconiditional support and love is part and parcel of our friendship.
babe ….. you’ll find whatever you’re looking for… pretty soon too i figure. you always have in life. one of the things you have a knack for. HUGS!
See you later at the gym la
he he … happy 2004 too. You really looked VERY VERY GOOD at SNOWBAL!!!!
glad to have met you and next time Sam introduces someone to you and asks them to insult you … must slap him hard hard. cannot let him ill-treat you like that!
What a year indeed!
Sigh. Who would have thought that 2003 would end on a worse note than with which it began! How could things get any worse than SARS, the Iraq war, George W. Bush, a bad economy and all the other horrible things that happened? And yet it did, and in such a sudden and personal way for me. Christmas Eve will never be the same for me and my family again. The best thing to have come out of my mom’s death, if there is any good thing to come out of such a terrible one, is that my friends have shown me incredible love and support, for which I am eternally grateful and forever in their debt. Still, it hardly eases the pain that her absence has brought and will no doubt continue to bring. 2004 will be a year of searching and remembering and wondering and wandering. May whatever I am looking for, be found.
yeah…i too hope that 2004 will be a much much better year too….
and happy to have met you!
c u ard soon… here’s an advance Happy New Year to u!!